Love

Kris Dearie,

I am not a very good writer like you, but I'll try my best. When my heart speaks, I hope you can feel and hear it. I've done so many wrong-doings in the past, but I would like to have a peaceful life with you in the future. I know we can be together, we are perfect for each other, no matter what happens my feelings for you will not change. My temper has not done a very good job of keeping you by my side -- being very harsh and tormented you many times -- but that has to change for good because I love you and care for you so much.

I do believe that a change in a person should come from within and I've been feeling substantial changes since I last broke up with you. I also do believe that my love for you is so strong that I love what you've loved, God and believe in him. You are also my companion, my partner in the life journey and my neighbor. I've no longer see myself as "me" and "I" because it is meaningless; without you. I have come to think of "us" and "we" instead.

Love is the single most important thing -- and creation. You have loved me so much that it made me grew so strong, and my love for you is deeper and deeper each day. Yet, I'm such a fool to be not so expressive and not appreciative in a good way to show how much I care for you. I've seen the "light" at the end of the tunnel finally, and wished to become a better person for good. I've feel how you have gone through and we have come to a point where we exchanged each others' shoes. Now that we've got both perspectives, I wish that we can understand each other more and will try to work things out because your love is truly incomparable to any other things in life. I love you so much dearie.

Love,
Mike Dearie

Nice song

This song reminds me of you.. It's in Mandarin but it will be good if you can get someone to translate to you. That is if you happen to view the blog.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvUsOXNPVxo

Broken

My heart is broken by my bf, one who does not know how to control his words, think logically when he is angry. In his eyes, I'm an emotional person, too emotional for him to handle. At least, I can control my thoughts and do not shoot off words that hurt people.

He suggested a break up again last night. Tell me Lord, how can I be secure in a relationship with a man who keeps saying that he wants to leave me? He wished me all the best in looking for another man. If that's what he wants, sure...

I just feel that I had loved in vain... Who is the one not appreciating the other party? Take me with you Lord, in every way, in everything... This man is not worth me giving you up. Only your love for me is true and will sustain forever.

Happiness

I just want dearie and I to be happy around each other... overcome all issues together... That is true happiness and love...

Happy Birthday

Dearie,

this is the first time we are clebrating your birthday together :) Hope it will be a memorable one.. And all the best for your CISSP exam :) I love you and Happy Birthday...

Romance gone wrong

I was just trying to be sweet and romantic but he miunderstood my gd intention. That's very painful...

He used words like :You want to break up with me? I'm totally fine with it." He said I'm immature and I need lots of attention, wants to contact him every hour because I'm spoilt by my ex. I told him and he usedf it against me again... I've not used harsh words on him hence I'm not sure if he feels tha pain but I do. Words are like swords and it hurts like hell.

I really dunno y I love him but I just do. He comes in a package too. This is just one of the days I hope. I hope 70% of the time he will be sweet and loving. Most of the time I'm hanging out with Sha and not him, I dunno y he said that I need his attention. I asked him to tell me wat I have done but he din want to. If he doesn't say, how would I know? How would I learn? Sometimes I hope he can be a little fairer to me. I know he is frustrated and hard pressed for time and he may be righ that I'm not helping at all...

I'm not leading a single life. I have a bf. I do care about him, I do ask him to study. I ask him what he wants and I try to compromise. In the end it's still my fault. How can I help? How can I let him keep his cool? Disappear from his life or what? I'm like walking on a minefield, not knowing when I'll step on a mine. Or is it that I'm submissive and wanted to be with him that he thinks he can bully me? If he thinks so little of our rel, y am I with him? Doesn't that make me a fool?

I have my dreams, my wishes... I wish he can do well in his exam, stop using harsh words on me, dun be too stressed up and dun flare up too often... I wish I'll do well in my studies, have someone who accepts me for who I am, won't be too clingy to my bf, be firm but not harsh, give in when appropriate and dun let my bf bully me...

Dearie...

Dearie..

I know I've said this many times but it's the first time I'm writing abt it. Dearie, after we broke up, I tried to convince myself that there isn't a feeling of 'the one' coz I had that feeling but in the end we still broke up.

I thought by going overseas might do me gd but everything juz reminded me of u. It made me so sad.. I told myself that u din want to be in touch with me anymore or u have moved on. I comforted myself that everything would be fine as time passes by. I din know how much effect u have on my life till we broke up. I even thought that only miracle will bring us back tog again.

That night, I dreamt of u. I hesitated as I did not know if I should contact u.. In the end I still took the first step to email u.. Never did I expect u to reply :) well, the rest of the story u know already :)

It is indeed a miracle that we r tog again.. I think the break up did us gd.. It teaches me how to appreciate u even more, allows me to know how much I love u.. I hope we will both keep our temper in check n dun ever say break up again, coz it hurts :)

I love u dearie.. Truly do n u know ;)