I'm sitting here, trying to do my work... It's supposed to be my holiday. I feel stress and tired. I don't know what I can do to cheer myself up. I want to relax, have some fun, go drinking, but all these will take up my time for doing my work. I don't know how long I have to work a day. I really don't have much life. Although I don't have many friends to go out with, I still hope I can put my work aside and just be myself.

I'm worried that with the stress, my temper will be bad. Of course, I'll try to manage my emotions, sometimes it's just so overwhelming. I wish I can have quality sleep. Had a nightmare the moment I fell asleep last night. I did not call you because we just hung up not long ago. Just so sad...