If only I can...

If only I can make some decisions when I'm with you, such as order your drinks and food for you when you are not around, what movie to watch at what time, when to meet, where to go, what time to meet etc... You are always so busy that I try to accommodate your time and everything. There are times I really wish to go places I have never been, but you are too tired or in a rush to meet. I can try to understand, but sometimes I wish I can have my way too... Being with you, I don't dare to voice out what I wish or want, because you will say I expect a lot, stretch you etc.. I really don't know what to do.