I love you

Dearie

I don't care if it's too late, even if you're not here with me..

Just want to tell you that I love you and I miss you, you'll always be in my heart for eternity.

Love you always.

Missing You

Dearie

How are you lately? It's been so long I tried not to disturb you, but a year flies by pretty quickly. I just wanted to say I've missed you and hope you're doing fine.

Would love to be by your side, give you strength and support when you are in need -- simple wishes that I hope to be fulfilled... God bless and have a good night dreams my love.

With lots of love
Mike Dearie

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day Dearie. :)

Just listening to "Hello" and missing you. Hope you're doing well and happy.

God bless you.

With love, hugs and kisses,
Dearie

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday Dearie.

:)

We were so happy back then :)

People change,
Weathers change,
Situations change,
What does not change is

The love of God for us
Eventhough my love for you is uncomparable to God's
Love you always dearie
In Jesus' name
Amen.

All I want for Christmas is ... You

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is... You

Dearie, I don't want status, money, or anything else.
It's someone you truly and deeply love
and it is YOU whom I care and wish the best for
Once again Merry Christmas Dearie and God Bless :)

Mariah Carey - All I want for Christmas is You (from Love Actually Soundtrack)

With much love,
Dearie

Merry Christmas Dearie

Wishing my Dearie
Happiness and Joy

on this special day
Merry Christmas Dearie!

Love you always :) - you will always be in my heart...
Mike Dearie

Anniversary

Dearie,

Happy Anniversary ...

Our First ... and hope to be with you and in love with you for the days until we're old ...

Love you very much dearie

Always be yours
Dearie

P.S. if you happened to read our blog, may I request one favor from you? Please send my regards to our little scrapbook and read it once for us.. thank you dearie. :)

Message from your dearie

Dearie...

When you check your phone, it's nice to receive someone is thinking of you, but at the same time, I don't want to disturb you... being at a distance would be the best for both of us I guess.

How's your day dearie? Hope you survived through your messology at Damai.. *hugs* poor you...

Eventhough I'm writing here, I'm not sure it'll be read, but having faith is better than sitting around hoping something would happen and do nothing... you said.. I'll stop blogging, say harsh words and stop going to church... I can't say anything but time will tell, dearie.

I haven't been saying this because I don't wish to irritate you.. but...

*Swallows* ... I love you very much dearie.. truly do and you know... :) and I miss you so much too...

Love you always and good night my Princess,
Dearie

Eagles

Dearie, thanks for sharing about the Eagles.. very interesting and I learned a lot of principles and nature of eagles.

I have not been a good companion lately for you; we used to be able to share and talk about anything under the sun and moon. I'm sure we can do it again dearie.

You're truly an amazing girl who always supportive of me and never go anything less of me. Trust after you test, but you didn't test and trusted me. Thank you for everything.

I'm happy to see you happy with no more anger. I wish that we both be happy with each other around. And I know we will.

Lord has spoken to me this morning to talk to you.. so I did. He's amazing isn't he? Dreamt of you during the nap being piggy too...

Today's sermon was planting a relationship seed to the ground. The pastor gave an example of hard ground (truth) with sand (love). If the ground is too hard.. seed can't grow. If the ground is too soft and sandy, it can't hold on to. Appropriate mixture of truth and love is needed.. love alone can't survive.. neither without the reality of life.

I'll be here for you dearie; a focused, strong eagle whom you can depend on. I'll be by your side, through the goods and bads. :) That's what we're for, right? Use me because I'm someone useful and someone you can depend on.. I live my life for others and I do live definitely for you, dearie.

Love you always
Dearie

Missing You

Hello Dearie,

If you happened to read our blog...

6 months and 6 days ago... we talked about getting married after having dinner at Tiffin's Room, Raffles Hotel...

I'm not in Singapore right now, but my mind, heart and soul is with you dearie

I just wish that you're safe, happy and being yourself

I'm not asking anything from you.. and it's not about me. I just want you to be happy, and I'm sorry for being too emotional the other day. I was just too down and missing you too much and said things that I'd regret "again".

I'm not coming on strong or demanding anything. I just want to let you know that I've missed you very much and I truly do.

Love you always,
Dearie

Sweet November

Enya - Only Time

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your hearth chose, only time?

Who can say why your heart sights,
As your live flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies, only time?

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....

Who can say if your love groves,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?

Who knows? Only time
Who knows? Only time

Sweet November

Think when you're still a KID

A video you can share with your students, dearie. Here.

May God bless you and give you strength and wisdom.

Fair

Yes, that's the word that causes problems in my relationship with you, dearie.

I use dearie because you are my dearie. You said you'll keep "dearie" aside for me but you do not use it but expect me to be gentle and kind towards you, not to be cold towards you. Re-read all the smses you sent to me, how "cold" they were towards me. Talking about being fair. You make me tear as I write this. I wasn't scolding you, I was just telling you how I felt but you will always come up with "I will not contact you again". Even for calling your brother because I was worried, you shut me out and accused me of bothering you. Reasons after reasons, to cut me off. So yes, I'm the one not being fair here, not you. Enough, I don't want to quarrel or argue, trust me. I just want this all to be over, forever.

Yesterday night, you've texted me a good night message while I was in living room doing my work. When I came back into my room I've read two messages, the latter being "I'm ok if u don't want to keep in touch. I can leave u alone, I can understand" which was sent 4 minutes after you've sent the first one.

When you were angry at me, when you haven't simmer down, I've texted you to have a good day at church or good night messages, but you do not reply. I may have to wait a very long to receive a text from you or "none" at all but do I misunderstand? I just know that you're going through a lot so I leave you alone. You said "I just want to concentrate on my work for now", which is fine ... I didn't bother you at all, did I? I just want you to have peace dearie. I know the message was innocent but if I were you, I feel that if I miss someone, I would tell it directly. I do truly miss you too, just so that you know.

You've already walked out of my life, flying away like a bird. I have nothing to loose, or fear. I just have this enormous faith in God. Also you can't cut off love like that, especially someone so special to you -- so I just don't want to bother you because my love for you can't be stopped. You should not try to use being in contact as a threat because it hurts. I can't control you and I didn't control whatever you want to do; be it walking away or coming back to my life. I let you be, I let you do it, didn't I? You know what you are doing and I'll just pray God will guide you through.

A trip to Zoo

A year ago on this day...

Dearie and I first realized our feelings for each other. Although our lives are hectic and shortage of time now even to share about ourselves, I hope this is just temporary because at the end of the day, we all need to go "home" and home is where your loved ones are. I used to look at my education and my career and thinking that I'm doing all this for "us", for our better future. But I've realized at the long day at work, I will inevitably be going home and family is the only thing that matters. I thank Lord for giving me an opportunity to see through this incredible vision and I pray that he protect and guide my dearie every step of the way. Amen.

Psalm 23

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

² He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

³ he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

⁴ Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^a]">[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

⁵ You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

⁶ Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

Comfortable

Recently I've realized that I've never looked through your phone to play games nor explored your phone. I've never see the things in your wallet. Why? Because you have guarded your privacy too much and you think that all Singaporeans are after money, including me. I've never asked about your pay, savings, investments etc because you didn't like it. However, as a couple, they should be comfortable to talk and share about all these. Not that they are money minded, but rather, open enough with each other.. You may not agree, but just some thoughts.

God's Answer - 10.10.10

“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.” -- Anonymous

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself. There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world.
 It's the beginning of a new life. Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our 
lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made. Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

You once told me.. you're living in vain because so many failed relationships. I guess you are tired and hurt; retreating into your cave again... Hope you recover soon dearie.

Wish you happiness and peace throughout your life journey and able to smile from the bottom of your heart.

Dearie

Dearie...

It's been over a month since I last heard you call me that... thank you for warming my heart with your words, dearie :) I deeply and truly care about it, you know that...

I know we both had been very busy lately and although I wish I could spend more time with you talking or even listening to things that you have to say... it seems that it's not possible. So I decided to pray for you whenever I think of you.. that's the only way I feel that I'm with you by your side.

I don't wish to disturb you while you're doing something or sleeping ... so I tried not to text you. We had communication problems in the past... hope we can sort this area out :)

I wish to tuck you in your bed and wish you sweetest dreams and kiss you good night, dearie. If I'm only allowed to do that for the rest of your life...

Love you always (and you know)
Mike Dearie

Dreams

I've been having dreams that are vivid and which revolves around dearie. When I messaged her about it earlier, she said what I dreamt was real.

In my dreams, I'm having dreams that dearie is having nightmares, restless, or waking up quite often at nights, and sometimes even waking up earlier. When she wakes up in my dreams, I also wake up in my own dream. When I looked at the watch.. sometimes it's middle of the night, sometimes around 5 am and I couldn't get back to sleep. I'm not sure if dearie remembers the movie we watched together called "Inception". It's real in my dreams and it's vivid. I also dreamt in my dreams that she's crying. When I read her blog entry, I was quite surprised how my dreams are connected to hers...

Whenever I wake up from the dreams, I will pray and wish her sound and restful sleep. Since I couldn't be there to hold her so that she won't have nightmares, I only wish that those dreams will be over soon for her.

I take this time to pray, as I do every night, that she will have complete "rest" in the Lord so that he can work on her and grant her the strength. May all these nightmares and weird dreams perish under the name of Jesus. Amen.